I HEART YOU

The very first moment we met I thought you were something special. Your presence totally caught me off guard.

I met you on the eleventh of September- that should have been enough for me to know how this is going to end.

Therefore its just natural for me to strive for the chaos you provoke.

When we got to know each other, I didn’t like you at first, but slowly you found your way into my heart. I wouldn’t call you the love of my life but you’re definitely a once in a lifetime thing. Maybe you are the one that got away, but maybe it's too early to say.

You are everything I always wished for, and yet fate is pulling us apart in the most cruel of manners.

It’s hard to believe you know me. In the course of 42 days, you saw glimpses of my soul the exact moment I was confronted with them. 42 days in a lifetime are nothing, but right now this is everything.

You peaked through the blinds of my heart and took a slow look at my deepest fears. There was no way I could have protected myself from that, we’re just too similar. I found myself in you, it’s simply bad luck that you too don’t know what you’re doing. Or maybe you do and just keep it hidden from me.

But there is no such thing as secrets. Right here, right now neither you nor me are safe. At any moment there could be someone secretly watching us. Everyone always told me to be careful and be aware at any time, but love comes as unexpected as a shooting star, and gets right to your heart like the bullets from a gun.

Your gun.

I wanted to believe it was us who can be held responsible for every time we found each other in the little things no one noticed, but with time passing I feel like there is something else I have to hold accountable.

There was a spark and I know you felt it too.

There were nights I wasn’t sure, if just maybe I was the only one who fell.

It doesn’t seem like you’d do anything to keep me.

Even though I’m not sure if I could commit to you, I would really love to be considered as your favorite.

One of the few chosen ones that you keep in your heart. I would even settle for your veins, because everything is better than not to be a part of your story.

I had my shot, I had my chapter, and I desperately hope it’s the first of many.